Let That Be Enough

Quiet day is a day in which we are supposed to spend a day in silence with God. This means no talking with others around us. This in itself was a challenge for me, and most of the people here. I had really big expectations for this day though. I felt that God was supposed to give me some profound direction or an idea of what the heck I am doing with my life. I spent the whole morning laying in the grass, sun beaming down, frustrated out of my mind. I so badly wanted to hear God and what He had to say to me. I had been praying for some sort of an epiphany, but all I heard was silence. So I fell in and out of sleep, went to lunch, sat in silence, went back to my spot outside. Still nothing. So I decided that I would go lay in the conference hall while the music played. Thinking soaking in the words and trying to focus on them would help me hear God. All that happened was me falling asleep and snoring. I woke up even more frustrated. Showering seemed like the only thing to do at this point. I turned on my computer and music just before I hit the shower just to help me wind down. "Let me know you love me. Let that be enough." Those were the only words I heard. And that is when God spoke. He simply wanted me to know that He loves me, that He is holding me in His everlasting arms and that was enough. He wanted me to know that I didn't need to have some big realization, all He needed was for me to be reminded of His love for each one of us. He wants that to be enough. So even though I didn't discover what I was hoping for, God spoke what He needed. That was enough for me.